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begzarim..
Sunday, March 30, 2003
delam baz gerefte..enghadr ke daram portishead goosh midam!
bavaret mishe age begam 4ruze avvale jang khabam nemibord? deraaz mikeshidam
shabhaa tu rakhtekhaab, kontrolle telvision ro migereftam dastam, har sahne o har
sokhanraanii ro tu tak take kaanalhaaye telvision negah mikardam.....enghadr harf
ru delam daram ke nemidunam az kojaa shoroo konam!
hafteye pish doshanbe tu shahre kuchike man tazaahorate zedde jang bud.cheghadr
az daste khodam asabani shodam ke inja nabudam o dir fahmidam.
shabhaaii ke nemitunam bekhabam mesle ine ke tu in fucking worl hichki nist.hichki!
gilase sharaabam tu dastame o fekr mikonam.be har kufti! be tamaame webloghaaye
bahal sar mizanam.kash mitunestam be khubiye...o...o...benevisam!
emruz baad az saalhaa saii kardam kami basketball bazi konam.
maman sobh behem zang zad. cheghadr delesh baram tang shode o beruye khodesh
nemiyare.
har dafe alaki az baba miporsam :"rastesho begoo iran khabari az jang nist?" mige:
"na, negaraan nabash." migam:"khob!"
beram ye dush begiram shayad haalam behtar beshe.delam gerefte...
12:53 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2003
panjshanbe saat19:58 20march03
emruz az un ruzhaaye kami dar zendegim bud ke na dars bayad mikhundam va na sare kar
bayad miraftam va hich kare mohemme digeii ham nadashtam.az un ruzhaaii ke man be esme "ruze
khodam" ya "yek ruz baraye khodam" mishnasam.az un ruzhaii ke adam vaghte hesabi dare ba
khodesh haal kone.az un ruzhaii ke adam mitune esterahat bokone ya por az enerjy beshe.
sobh ke az khab bidar shodam hodude saat 9 bud cheshmamo baz o baste kardam o yedafee ye
ghame vahshatnak delamo gerefet.saat ro kuk karde budam ke shab bidarbesham akhbar ro gush
konam.zangesho nashnide budam! (..hala engaar ba akhbar gush kardan komaki baraye jelogiri
az jang budam!!) dar hali ke dashtam tu delam khodam ro analyse mikardam ke ehtemalan be in
dalil sedaye zange saat ro nashnidam ke shayad tu zamire nakhodagaham aslan NEMIKHASTAM
sedasho beshnavam, ke sedasho nashnidam!, pashodam telvision ro roshan kardam o raftam tu
ashpazkhuneye fenghelim, mashin-ghahvaro dashtam rah mindakhtam ke sedaye guyandeye akhbar
ro shenidam ke az bombarunhaaye shabe gozashte migoft.ghahve o zirsigarimo az ashpazkhune
ovordam neshastam jeloye telvision.gooyandeye akhbar ba khabarnegarhaye un shabake dar
baghdad,washington,kuwait,london,tehran,moskow..modaavem ertebate videoii bargharar mikard...
enghadr dar morede ozaae siyasie konuniye donya harf baraaye zadan daram ke nemidunam alan
inja chishoono benevisam!begzarim..
tamame ruz tu fekr jang budam.hatta yaade ye khatere ham oftadam.yadam umad ke vaghti bache
budam naghaashiye jang ro keshide budam, midunestam ye feshang,ye bomb ya ye enfejaar yani
chi!taze yaade in ye khuneye bombarun shode ke tu bachchegi tu ye shahre azarbayjan dide
budam oftadam.in hame saal gozashte vali un sahneye gozaraa az tu mashin, che vaazeh tu
haafazam bud! vahshat baram dasht,yade bad az jang tu mosaferate abadanemun oftadam.ye divaare
feleziye tulaniye dore ye mohavvate oftadam ke por az suraakhhaaye gonde _yaadegaariye jang_
bud.be in fekr kardam ke man be andazeye unhaii ke kasi ro az dast dadan ya jang ro vaaghean
az nazdik hes kardan, chizi az jang nemidunam.
..yani ozaaye ravaabete kolli keshvarhaa ba ham, degargun mishe ba in jang!
"emshab 2000 sarbaaze va ehtemaalan chand ta bomb ham az englestan gharare be sarbazhaaye
zamini va havaiiye US bepeivande!" ..delam gerefte.delam gerefte ba inke emruz kheili saii
kardam khodamo mashghul konam ke be ozaae siyasi fekr nakonam,narahatam mikone.kolli labe
rudkhuneye shahremun ghadam zadam.bikhiyal tu ye maghaazeye lebas ham kolli ghadam zadam o
saii kardam khodamo ba barresiye daghighe ye T-shir ya ye daman(az lahaaze jens o gheimat)
mashghul konam, faghat ke be kalameye "jang" fekr nakonam! baad az inke lebashamo tu salone
lebasshuii az tu khosh-kon dar ovordam,ba deghghate bisaabegheii yeki yeki tashun kardamm o
tu kulim ja dadam.raftam tu ye maghaazeye kart-postal-forooshi o 45min tul keshid ta 3ta
kart-postal baraaye tabrike eid be maman, baba o khaharam entekhab konam. tu tamame rah
khodamo ba fekr kardan raaje be ghazaaii ke vaghti residam
khune baraaye khodam dorost mikonam, mashghul kardam.vasate rah ye araayeshgah ham didam,
ye lahze hatta fekr kardam beram tu muhamo kutah o fer o rang konam!! dare khunaro ke baz
kardam cheshmam be majalleye in hafteye "Spiegel" oftad _tarjomeye titresh fekr konam beshe
"ghodrate jahaaniye motekabber".telvisiono baz roshan kardam o neshastam lahze be lahze jang
ro donbal konam! mesle ye baziye football ya handball, mesle ye film,mesle ye raghse patinaj,
mesle ye box,...mesle ye show!na..na, mesle vahshatnaktarin show!
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